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Psalm 39 - SL

Psalm 39 - SL - Who am I, that the Lord is still so gracious?

v.1 "I said, 'I will guard my ways, that I may not sin with my tongue; I will guard my mouth with a muzzle, so long as the wicked are in my presence.'"
v.3 "My heart became heart within me. As I mused, the fire burned; then I spoke with my tongue:
v.7 "'And now, O Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in you."
v.8 "Deliver me from all my transgressions. Do not make me the score of the fool!"
v.12 "'Hear my prayer, O Lord, and give ear to my cry; hold not your peace at my tears! For I am a sojourner with you, a guest, like all my fathers."

A few weeks back, Juliano got this word from God for me during Abide time. Though it wasn't the affirmation I thought God was going to say, it was very applicable and provide another avenue of God intruding into my thoughts. The verse at the time (and the continued theme) that popped out right away was verse 1. I realize that I should have kept with it, because I sinned specifically with this again this week. I've been quick to call some people out this week in my righteousness and in a way that wasn't the most loving. For the past few weeks, I've been trying much more with watching my words and to just not talk as much (haha).
Verse 3 also is related to this, in that I feel that my heart burns in my silence. But I don't know if it is burning because a discipline in keeping my tongue or because - like David - he recognizes the sins around him that he wants to call out, but then he comes to recognize his own sins too. (v.7&8)

 All in all, I like to come away from this Psalm with v.12. Though the wait of God seems heavy and recognizing my own sins seems daunting, I want to still cry out to God and recognize God as the one who brings me into His family. The Lord is so gracious, and I want to step into that constantly!

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