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This Psalm is always a reminder for me to see if I am living in the ways of God. It's always been a struggle for me. On one hand, i want to be righteous and follow God and live in His ways, but on the other, I'm not gonna lie, I'm so drawn to "the ways of the sinners". For me, my biggest vices in life have been these three things: money, sex, an alcohol. Therefore, it's always so easy for me to fall into gambling, porn, and drinking. Of course, over these past few years, God has been working in me to deal with these issues and I can see how he has transformed me to fixate my eyes on Him. However, these past few months have been difficult in regards to lust. I think i've been going through a season of loneliness and i see my friends around me in relationships, but here I am, single. My scripts of never being good enough or not worthy of being loved have spiraled me down a steep path of reverting back to lust. This Psalm, however, gives me hope and a wakeup ...

10-12  So, rebel-kings, use your heads; Upstart-judges, learn your lesson: Worship  God  in adoring embrace, Celebrate in trembling awe. Kiss Messiah! Your very lives are in danger, you know; His anger is about to explode, But if you make a run for God—you won’t regret it! Running for God is currently all I have right now. I'm in a really weird season of exile and healing. Family just being one of those things I majorly relied, conceptually, is gone. I mean, I can meet each of my family members and talk to them, but the concept doesn't exist anymore. Having that gone really shatters something. Kinda like that one scene in Inside Out. When the whole platform of one's values crumbles. That is not to say I hate my family or don't want to have a family. On the contrary, I can't wait the day when I can have a family of my own again. As of now, there's not a place I can call 'home'. That specific 'home' feeling. That is why I say I'm in ...

Psalm 1 6 God charts the road you take. The road they take is Skid Row. Sometimes I personally struggle in seeing myself as not being part of the righteous portion of psalms. Whenever I ready psalms, I always have to constantly ask myself. Am I with the righteous or the wicked in this context? I read Psalms a lot, but I never actually read it in order. And it's interesting that this Psalm starts by with the author saying to the reader "How well God must like you." Even though I walked so many years with God, and receiving breakthrough, and experiencing His love, I still struggle understanding that God loves me everyday and every moment. I always have to check my back. 'Am I doing the right thing?' 'Am I pleasing God?' That is why I feel whenever God speaks to me, He's always so gentle. So loving. I feel I literally seek God's sign or approval that that is how He feels about me everyday. This has been a simple but good reminder. I...