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Psalm 35 - Juliano

Psalm 35 1-3 Harass these hecklers, God, punch these bullies in the nose. Grab a weapon, anything at hand; stand up for me ! Get ready to throw the spear, aim the javelin, at the people who are out to get me. Reassure me; let me hear you say, "I'll save you." I need God's reassurance everyday, literally haha. I'm very needy, and perhaps that's a good quality to have in relation to God? Just before this I had some quiet time with God. And doing that more consistently it has been giving life for me. Everyday, I need to hear from God that everything will be okay. It's what sustains me as I go. It is so easy to slip up to a pool of anxiety and fear. I'm glad I had a chance to be recentered with God. It has been a while. Thank you Lord that you come to my rescue.  That you cast away all of the lies and fears in my heart. That you clear my mind and give it peace.  That you breathe life into my weary body and soul.  I need your daily...
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Psalm 34 - Juliano

Psalm 34 15 God keeps an eye on his friends, his ears pick up every moan and groan. 16 God won't put up with rebels; he'll cull them from the pack. 17 Is anoyone crying for help? God is listening, ready to rescue you. 18 If your heart is broken, you'll find God right there if you're kicked in the gut, he'll help you catch your breath. 19 Disciples so often get into trouble; still, God is there every time. The last stretch for my application is fast approaching, and I'm getting nervous, anxious once again. On top of that, I've been feeling more 'heart sick', in the sense that the desire to be with someone has been more intensified as of late. I can't help to think that I've been making mistakes. Perhaps doing things that would detract from time to get the application done. Or times where I just feel that my mental or physical limitations are reached, and it's hard to keep going. I tend to burn out a lot quicker. Alm...
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Psalm 39 - SL

Psalm 39 - SL - Who am I, that the Lord is still so gracious? v.1 "I said, 'I will guard my ways, that I may not sin with my tongue; I will guard my mouth with a muzzle, so long as the wicked are in my presence.'" v.3 "My heart became heart within me. As I mused, the fire burned; then I spoke with my tongue: v.7 "'And now, O Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in you." v.8 "Deliver me from all my transgressions. Do not make me the score of the fool!" v.12 "'Hear my prayer, O Lord, and give ear to my cry; hold not your peace at my tears! For I am a sojourner with you, a guest, like all my fathers." A few weeks back, Juliano got this word from God for me during Abide time. Though it wasn't the affirmation I thought God was going to say, it was very applicable and provide another avenue of God intruding into my thoughts. The verse at the time (and the continued theme) that popped out right away was verse 1. I realiz...
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Psalm 33 - Juliano

Psalm 33 20-22 We're depending on God; he's everything we need. What's more, our hearts brim with joy since we've taken for our own his holy name. Love us, God, with all you've got - that's what we're depending on. Lately, I've been intentionally trying to choose no to fret. To choose to pray, rather than trying to toil away without God's help. If all that I'm doing is based on faith. And all that I do depends on God's providence, then I need to be centered in God. More than anything, I need to be attentive to His whispers. His peace. The past two months have been filled with anxiety and fretting. Doing a lot of things to hopefully get to my application goals on my own. But now I try to intentionally pray every morning. I realize I need His peace to keep on going. Using up 30 mins of my mornings felt like it end up being more productive in the long run. Rather than trying to use the most time I can to get a task done. I...
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Psalm 38 - SL

Psalm 38 - Here I am God, Strengthen me Sometimes verses 4 & 9 are more realistic of my days, "For my iniquities have gone over my head; like a heavy burden, they are too heavy for me." and "O Lord, all my longing is before you; my sighing is not hidden from you." I think I feel guilty when I'm in that mindset. When my own sins and tiredness just come out, and I feel like I'm just waiting on God (v. 15). And that's the thing, I don't really know what I'm waiting for right now. Things are adjusting in my life, and I'm slowly but surely attempting to live this God-centered life. It isn't great, I still suck, and I still am far from what my ideal is. Yet, I want to recognize that there are improvements and to not let my own ego get in the way of the small steps. I know I'm taking it a bit out of context, but verse 18 is also an almost daily activity too - "I confess my iniquity; I am sorry for my sin." The Lord is alw...
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Psalm 35

But those who want      the best for me, Let them have the last word—a glad shout!—      and say, over and over and over, “ God  is great—everything works      together for good for his servant.” I’ll tell the world how great and good you are,      I’ll shout Hallelujah all day, every day. ----- It's so easy for me to forget about those in my corner that are rooting for me. I am so quick to complain or even give up. Thinking about it, when I give up, I'm not just giving up on myself, I'm giving up on those that believe in me, which is a disservice to them. God has surrounded me with people that want the best for me and I owe it not only to God and myself, but to those that have invested in me. ---- Lord, help me to recognize my blessings, grow from them so that I may be able to bless others. May your seeds planted in me by those around me produce good fruit. Amen.
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Psalm 34

4  God  met me more than halfway, he freed me from my anxious fears. ----- This verse really hit me. In light of today's celebration, I realize just how faithful God is, even when we're not. It's been a struggle to continue following God these days as fear and anxiety creep in about loneliness. I'm finding myself closer and closer to 30, and still single. This was definitely not how I planned my life to be. I keep reminding myself that there must be a reason and that God doesn't think i'm ready to be entrusted with one of His daughters yet. However, instead of responding to the challenge with motivation, i find myself in defeat. It's verses like this and days like today when I'm encouraged to keep pursuing God because He will meet me more than halfway. ---- God, thank you for your faithfulness. May this week be marked by my effort to take a step towards you. Amen.
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