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Psalm 13 - Juliano

2 How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart?
5 But I trust in your unfailling love; my heart rejoices in your salvation.
6 I will sing the Lord's praise, for he has been good to me.

This is relatively a short Psalm, but I feel I emphasize with almost every aspect of it.

It's these two modes David goes through. One that is bringing his pains to God, but then another mode where David assures his trust and thanksgiving to God.

I suppose lately I have been struggling with jealousy or envy. More in the sense of seeing other people's life situations. I feel like I'm in a season I just got to bite the bullet, and work really hard. There are a lot of things that I need to do logistically. Which leaves not a whole lot of room for hanging out or fun.

Before I would be able to cheer on people when they are going through good, but lately it has been proving to be more and more difficult. Just this season of emotional burden and pain. Where I know what I must do, and I need to constantly remember why I am doing it in the first place.

But can't help to be envious of people traveling, enjoying life, experiencing love, etc.

But I also have to remember that a lot of the saints have gone through similar seasons. And I just need to focus my eyes on God for encouragement and remembering.

Luckily, I feel as I'm doing it more, it has been slowly growing on me more and more. It is not comfortable, but it has been good hard work.

I just gotta trust the process.

Thank you Lord for what you do. Thank you Lord that you help me pause. To remember. To sit down and rest. Catch up my breath. It can be so easy for me to be lost and narrow minded. Help me to see the bigger picture of the things you are doing.

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