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Psalm 7

3 Lord my God, if I have done this
and there is guilt on my hands -
4 if I have repaid my ally with evil
or without cause have robbed my foe -
5 then let my enemy pursue and overtake me;
let him trample my life to the ground
and make me sleep in the dust.

Something in my spirit is blocked, I feel weighted down.
After Pastor Isaac's sermon, the message has been really weighting on me.
To the point that it has been excruciating.
It perhaps it's the Holy Spirit pressing on me to take action.

I hate having to go through conversations like these, but I have done them in the past.
I just feel really awkward doing them, but it's necessary.
It's something I feel I have been holding up, mostly unconsciously.
But realizing that it is a hurt / resentment that I have been holding on to.
And I need to at the very least bring it up, but in a way that I want to seek reconciliation, or whatever it might be.

I hate having this feeling being stuck. And the last thing I want to do, is to keep it buried.

Jesus give me the courage to face these inner demons.
Anything that is not from you I pray that you cast it out in your name.
Also I pray for courage so that I can go and reconcile Jesus.
In your name I pray. Amen.

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  1. ShaneJuly 29, 2018 at 2:47 PM

    I hope you received your courage and strength. It sounds pretty weighty and serious! Would you share it with us? (If not, I understand!)

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