Psalm 6
1-2
Please, God, no more yelling, no more trips to the woodshed.
Treat me nice for a change;
I'm so starved for affection.
2-3
Can't you see I'm black-and-blue, beat up badly in bones and soul?
God, how long will it take for you to let up?
I feel this week hasn't been necessarily particularly hard. Emotionally hard that is.
I didn't feel necessarily very sad or frustrated about it. Work was fine and slow for once.
But I did have a lot on my plate for this week. Whether it was my own doing,
or even other stuff such as extra work I needed to do for other projects.
But it does feel like God is constantly taking me to the "discipline" camp.
Something to grow my character, or work ethic, etc.
Which I feel has been good for my overall growth and sense of responsibility.
But it does take a toll after a while. I just feel like there's so much in my plate.
It really puts me in a spot, that it's really difficult to do everything on my own.
Which is my challenging my sense of wanting to do everything on my own.
A weird pride, again, perhaps one of the sources being a sense that I feel I need to prove something to my family.
This is my cry I guess to God. This is great that I have grown so much.
But I'm so tired of doing it on my own. Trying to encourage myself on my own.
I'm starting to see my own limitatioins. Growing older too, so I'm slowly unable to have that level of energy as before.
Lord, I need you to provide for me.
Something. Something to ligthen my load.
I want to receive like a child, I want to admit that it is difficult to walk through this on my own.
Lord please find me. Do not delay on my prayers.
Hear my cry.
In your name I pray. Amen.
1-2
Please, God, no more yelling, no more trips to the woodshed.
Treat me nice for a change;
I'm so starved for affection.
2-3
Can't you see I'm black-and-blue, beat up badly in bones and soul?
God, how long will it take for you to let up?
I feel this week hasn't been necessarily particularly hard. Emotionally hard that is.
I didn't feel necessarily very sad or frustrated about it. Work was fine and slow for once.
But I did have a lot on my plate for this week. Whether it was my own doing,
or even other stuff such as extra work I needed to do for other projects.
But it does feel like God is constantly taking me to the "discipline" camp.
Something to grow my character, or work ethic, etc.
Which I feel has been good for my overall growth and sense of responsibility.
But it does take a toll after a while. I just feel like there's so much in my plate.
It really puts me in a spot, that it's really difficult to do everything on my own.
Which is my challenging my sense of wanting to do everything on my own.
A weird pride, again, perhaps one of the sources being a sense that I feel I need to prove something to my family.
This is my cry I guess to God. This is great that I have grown so much.
But I'm so tired of doing it on my own. Trying to encourage myself on my own.
I'm starting to see my own limitatioins. Growing older too, so I'm slowly unable to have that level of energy as before.
Lord, I need you to provide for me.
Something. Something to ligthen my load.
I want to receive like a child, I want to admit that it is difficult to walk through this on my own.
Lord please find me. Do not delay on my prayers.
Hear my cry.
In your name I pray. Amen.
Thank you for sharing, Juliano. You're doing a lot, and you're definitely accomplishing so much. Keep it up and work hard when you can, and accept rest and help when you need!
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